First Steps

The why to my what

I’ve been putting this off for a very long time. As someone who isn’t skilled or experienced at determining what it is I want, I do know that this is something I want to do. So why haven’t I done it? That is a question with many answers. So far I don’t like any of them…. I was going to start a list, and then I realized I can summarize the reason in a four letter word: fear.

I want you, my readers, to know that I don’t write in any sort of arrogance thinking that you will enjoy or value what you read. That is the self-berating messaging in my head. If I don’t find a way to rise above that story I’m telling myself, then I will never do what I want to do. I’m reframing my story in this way: I’m writing for me. Period. Full-stop. However, we all know that the truth is I hope you will read it. I hope you will share with me, and I hope that my sharing will start many a beautiful, engaging conversation.

Here are my “rules” for writing, which may change at any moment. Actually, I hope they will change as I learn and grow through this process.

1. I will write mostly in short bursts, as I myself have a hard time committing to long things to read.

2. I will label the longer reads at the front end so that you know what you’re getting each time.

3. I will write my most authentic, real self. Sometimes that self may contradict a previous writing. Contradictions are my real self.

4. I will share ponderings that I think are worth sharing: I won’t just be dumping all my crap on you.

5. I will swear. Sorry if you don’t like it. See #3. I’ll only swear when I feel that it’s necessary for #3.

6. I will write at least twice a week. (Yikes! I’m writing it down to be accountable. I know I should write more, and it may become more. My scared self wanted to only write “once a week” in the rules, but I’m trying to be brave.)

Please come along on this adventure with me. If you want to share with others something that you think might benefit them in some way, feel free to share.